declined, but otherwise a good ending

how to say about it? depressed? sad? or a little bit relieved?

i don't know acually.

i definitely know that the audit position absolutely is not suit me well. being a audit person requires a quality of be 严谨, even we could say some kind of geek. but as for me, i'm with generous, passionate, be well into making a big idea and leading a really diversified team, and have some chemistry with them.

passion, leadership, inclusive, that's the characteristics i actually need ,want and a must.

but you know, at this moment, i am in a mood of kinda annoyed. i just can't figure out why i was declined and can't get this over. i would have been through to the next round, having a kind interview with the partner. satisfied both me and the partner, the got the offer, but decline it soon afterwards.

why? the poor loser?

our team is good, we got the chemistry ,the collaboration, passion, no one's too much aggresive. to sum up in a word: nice. all of the people is nice. we're even in the right time, right place. because we are the very first group in the very first day which should really impressed the interviewers. but we didn't.

i've been thinking a lot about the decline today. one scene was came up in my mind. which happen near the end of the group assessment. when one of the senior audit manager asked one team member that for what reason she speak so little, i came out and tried to argue with this manager, i was just like " i think sometimes less is more.especially when you get involved in a teamwork,you have to know how and when to compromise, just for accomplishing the final team objective,and draw the conclusion in the end. if you don't know about this and you stuck on your own point of view, the only result would be we-can't- resolve-the problem- in-time " and after i said all this above, i added " sometimes i think , compromise means you have such a quality of 大局观 overview"

that's where the trigger was pulled .now i kinda sure this last words killed me. maybe the manager misunderstood the word compromise. he would think the word compromise means, in order to reach the final conclusion and agreement, you'll probably let go of the mistakes that your team would make. that is probably what deloitte hated most.

well, some of my team member recommend me as best listener 1 out of 2 , also the one with quality to be a good leader 1 out 2. but i was 鄙视BSed by deloitte.

what a crazy and unbelievable world!